So...

I went wedding dress shopping today. I'd been browsing before, but this was like for serious looking. And now I'm mildly freaking out but also kind of really confused. Like the lady was really sweet, she made me feel really special, but I never felt like a "bride". Like I didn't magically have that moment they push down your throat. And I don't know if I'm capable of it. I tried I think 7 dresses on. They were all really pretty and I could probably afford them. And like I kind of like one but I don't know if I'm in love with it. I felt good in it. I did but at the same time I kind of want the "ooh tingly" moment. I don't know. I guess I just don't want to look like poop. And I don't dress up so I don't have those moments. Ugh. Well here's a picture. I don't think it's the one. But it's definitely a really pretty one. I just crave that "moment". 

I still think I want something more Victorian. This is a bit too modern. Like I'm really confused though. I look at the picture and I'm like "holy crap I'm gorgeous" but I just don't know. Can someone find my dress for me??!

I still think I want something more like 

This or...

This. 

Soft. Flowyish without being "cover up the fat chick. Lace. Lots and lots of lace. Ugh.