I have devised a brilliant idea for my coverage options for my wedding. Ok so like I wanted cap sleeves added but when I put them on, they reminded me of someone I don't like very much. So I've decided to do like a bridal "coat" or wrap that I can take off at the reception. So basically my idea is to make it myself, just a long strip of tulle, with satin covered buttons sewn to one end. The tulle "jacket" would be wrapped low across my shoulders, wrapped under my arms, then buttoned in the back. That way I get a cover for my shoulders, but also it won't take away from the detail on the front of my dress! Yay!

Also, if my hairstylist can achieve it, this is how I want my hair. 

I'm not evenin joking, this is how I want my wedding makeup to look like this.

Also another idea. Ok so the reception hall provides our centerpieces, which is the hurricane lamps with candles and rose petals. We have to purchase the red petals that I want since they only provide the white ones. But when we went in for a viewing of the place before we booked, I saw that a couple had sewn their own table runners and it really rounded off the tables. I think I might like to make table runners. A red and gold damask would be hella right and really tie everything together :) 

I have an awesome idea for leaving the church after the ceremony. We act like we're going to leave all normal, go down the separate stairs and meet in the middle then the music will start playing some ridiculously hard song, we pull ray bands out of our pocket/bouquet and then walk out like were too cool for school. 

Update!

Okay, so I bought my wedding dress! Now that that big stress is off my back, wedding planning is fun again :) 

Jason and I loosened our theme up a little bit, we're calling it nerd/geek themed so that it can incorporate all the things that were obsessed with. For example, our wedding attire is based off my obsession with period costuming. The cake topper references doctor who, our grooms men are going to carry lightsabers and my girls are going to carry Harry Potter wands! The music is going to feature A LOT of my favorite band and my girls are going to wear gym shoes or flip flops or something under their dresses to break the traditional stuff. I'm going to wear red shoes! Jason and I actually sat and flipped through an oriental trader magazine with wedding stuff and picked out things together so we've got a lot of ideas now and we're really enjoying the planning process again now that I'm not stressed beyond belief. 

 

But a bit of good news is I've been in contact with several custom wedding dress makers. Looks like I will be getting my dream dress made specifically for me, for between $325 and $525! Now I just need to go get an idea of what I want before I send her my measurements.

So basically the only things I know about my wedding is that I won't be wearing a veil, the bridesmaids are carrying lanterns instead of flowers and what song I'm walking down the aisle to. This week has been so shitty because of the anxiety attacks induced by the prospect of trying on dresses in from of 1000 people. 

So basically the only things I know about my wedding is that I won't be wearing a veil, the bridesmaids are carrying lanterns instead of flowers and what song I'm walking down the aisle to. This week has been so shitty because of the anxiety attacks induced by the prospect of trying on dresses in from of 1000 people. 

I'm having an existential crisis. Like seriously, I'm on the verge of tears. I have no clue what I want in a wedding dress anymore. I thought I knew but now I'm totally lost.
Everyone kept putting doubts in m mind telling me I should go try on more dresses. I'm having panic just thinking about that. I don't want to go to yet another bridal salon with pushy sales people putting me in too small gowns and telling me to "imagine it fitting right". I want to be celebrated not degraded. I want the bridal experience that every woman wants. I'm genuinely considering having the dress custom made for me. To be able to get essentially my dream dress custom fitted to me, it would only be $995. But there lies the problem. That's really expensive, I'm poor. I'm confused, irritated and very upset. I wish we could just elope.

Ideas for my processional song

I really wanted to walk down the aisle to the across the universe version of "blackbird" but I cannot find an instrumental version. I don't like the beat to the actual Beatles version so I've come to the conclusion that I must make a new decision. 

Right now, I'm liking the idea of an instrumental version of a Panic! At The Disco song. 

Either

1. Northern Downpour
2. The End Of All Things
3. Collar Full
4. Always

If not, 

1. This I Promise You- NSYNC
2. I Do (Cherish You)- 98 degrees
3. Requiem on Water- Imperial Mammoth
4. Turning Page- Sleeping At Last

Also, as depressing as the lyrics of the song are, I think I want the bridesmaids to walk into "miserable at best" by mayday parade, piano version of course. 

Check it 

http://youtu.be/6dXlrb7NmHU

Dude! I think I've figured out our recessional song! Plus it's another way for me to incorporate Panic! into the wedding. Check out this video of a piano cover of Always. It's pretty freaking perfect. 

http://youtu.be/LK7OkOJUixI